Last Call

What is so demanding about a blog?! I have all the good intentions and my mind is overflowing with intelligent thought and conversation..haha.. but I can't seem to think of something in particular to write about. Perhaps I should create a theme from which to inspire myself.. that would be more intelligent than just letting my intelligence be lazy.. I suppose it has something to do with the fact that I know that there is no one to write TO. I'm writing into some sort of open space. How can someone write or organize some sort of rhetoric without any audience??
Hmm.. or maybe it is the fact that my life isn't challenging me with many new experiences that I feel the need to write about. I wish I was my cousin Charity, embarking on a journey in Germany for a year, in an unfamiliar place with unfamiliar feelings... but alas, I am sitting in my living room in good ole Gilbert, AZ. I read once that in order for creativity to flourish, there needs to be the constant motivation for the challenge of new circumstances - new experiences.. I couldn't agree with anything more than this. I think that it is 1) one of the reasons why people in general find dissatisfaction with life and 2) the reason why time in life passes so quickly. Routine is too comfortable, too classic, too old - I believe that something new should be experienced each day whether small or large. Something that makes the day unique for you - something that seperates this one day from any other day that you will live in your life. This is what makes life interesting and also gives life such a great purpose.
Maybe this is the reason why so many people have hobbies, and why so many people WITH hobbies seem to live happier and longer lives than those without something to challenge them and present them with a crisp, new, situation. I think there are also so many people who resist to answer that challenge or take the initiative to self-motivate. Also, so many who don't even know that the CHOICE exists to challenge themselves.
By the way, how does the late night help us process our thoughts? Maybe it is the one true time that we have some silence to organize - maybe it is the state that introduces sleep. Sleep is the time where we process thoughts and memories - maybe deep thought before sleep is like pre-sleep processing. Interesting. For more on sleep processing, check out The Scientific American Mind Magazine. Very interesting stuff. I could read for hours about the mind.
Strange how much is still such a mystery. We feel so ahead of the game in science in technology, but almost in an optimistic sort of way we focus on all the information we know instead of that which we do not. Although I suppose the scientists who are wearing white coats in some lab some where are working hard for more answers. I'm just the one who sits at home and takes in their discoveries from a magazine.
Have I written enough of my current thoughts? Boring? Maybe.. but this is me. The great wonderer.

Tired...

I just wanted to write a quick few thoughts though there really isn't a whole lot going on in my mind... I just don't want to have a blog with no thoughts!
Very very very excited to go to california soon.. August is the month of relaxation for me! Yes... But so scared that summer will soon be finished. And alas, I will have to start school again. Which honestly, I don't mind, but there's a different type of pressure you have to deal with when school comes around - different responsibilities.. more on my mind (as if there wasn't enough already...) But I know I'll handle it just fine.
I have an urge to end this blog like I'm writing some sincere letter to someone I know.. when REALLY.. I don't even know more than 2 people that even know I have a blog. And so it goes... I'll be back to write something more important soon.. if you're lucky.

So it's this easy...

Strange to have a blog.. I'm not sure even where to start. I will consider this firt blog as a test. Testing... One Two Three... Testing..
Well, I'll just start by assuming that no one will read this. Hello? Hello.